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Kate McLoughlin was left with nothing except three paper bags of evidence after her son, Zach, committed suicide last year at 19.

After 13 months, Kate was finally handed back his phone - which he wrote his final message on.

When she turned the phone on she realised that Zach has received 22 missed calls and dozens of text messages from people who had grown concerned for his welfare.

Credit: Facebook/Kate McLoughlin

Hoping that answers would be provided as to why her son committed suicide, Kate instead saw the many positive sides to his life.

"The only thing Zach's phone revealed to me was just how much he was loved," Kate said.

"The messages, pictures and videos only confirmed how much he loved life and filled it with joy, mischief and laughter, for himself and so many others."

Kate added that there was only one message which implied he was having a 'shitty day' but there was nothing to even hint at suicide, let alone depression or mental health issues.

She also spoke about the love in which he was surrounded by, and only wished that 'he had thrown himself into the arms of a loved one that night and not under a train'.

Credit: Facebook/Kate McLoughlin

Credit: Facebook/Kate McLoughlin

That night, Zach had asked his mum what was for dinner before heading out of the house, telling Kate that he was going to play basketball with a friend.

Hours later, police turned up at the family home, in Australia, to say that Zach had killed himself after writing a suicide note on his phone.

The note mentioned the love for his ex-girlfriend, encouraged his brothers to chase their dreams and thanked his parents for his 'beautiful upbringing'. He claimed that this world wasn't for him.

Kate explained that before his suicide, Zach had lost a close friend to bone cancer, after which two of his friends had also killed themselves.

In a Facebook post, Kate said: "My boy made a choice, when his doubts were high, his self-worth low and his mind was clouded by what seemed an insurmountable number of challenges to overcome.

"Zach got lost in the loneliness and darkness of his own pain and believed that this world wasn't for him. How very, very wrong he was."

At his funeral, Kate made a speech, in which she hopes that she can help others. She says that Zach made a 'bad choice' and that in choosing to end his own problems he has 'left heartbreak, devastation, pain and confusion'.

Credit: YouTube/ Jake M

Her key message was to encourage others to talk.

Kate said: "If you are struggling with life, in any way, I urge you to reach out.

"I encourage you to speak up and seek the help you need. I wish for you the clarity to know that you are loved, needed and supported."

'U OK M8?' is an initiative from TheLADbible in partnership with a range of mental health charities which will feature a series of films and stories to raise awareness of mental health.

If any of this sounds familiar, please don't suffer in silence. Reach out. It's the brave thing to do.

MIND: 0300 123 3393.

Samaritans: 116 123.

CALM: Outside London 0808 802 5858, inside London 0800 58 58 58.

Mental Health Foundation.

Featured Image Credit: Facebook/Kate McLoughlin

Michael Minay

Mike Minay is a trending journalist at LADbible. He’s co-ordinated interviews with some of the big names from the world of news and sport including ITV’s Robert Peston, Sky Sports’ Jeff Stelling and darts champion Michael van Gerwen. His reporting days began on University radio in Birmingham, before moving to BBC Sport Online – creating content for large events such as Wimbledon and the FA Cup final. Mike still commentates on Football League matches at the weekend. A Manchester LAD at heart.

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