Little Mix's Jesy Nelson Reveals Online Trolls Made Her Attempt Suicide
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Jesy Nelson, from the X Factor girl group Little Mix, has revealed she attempted suicide because online trolls mocked her appearance.
The pop star explained that all the pressure and negative comments caught up with her one night in 2013 and she took 'as many tablets as she could'.
Her attempt was stopped thanks to her then boyfriend who, when he realised what had happened, called an ambulance and Jesy was treated in hospital.
In a new BBC documentary Jesy Nelson: 'Odd One Out' she said: "I was sat in bed crying, thinking, 'This is never going to go, I'm going to feel sad for the rest of my life, so what is the point in being here?'
"The only way I can describe the pain is like constantly being heartbroken. I remember going to the kitchen and I just took as many tablets as I could. Then my ex, who was with me at the time, he woke up and was like, 'why are you crying?' I kept saying, 'I just want to die'."
Since the incident, she's deleted Twitter, which was a massive breeding ground for vile comments. The 28-year-old has been criticised for everything under the sun, including her appearance and singing ability.
After the suicide attempt, Jesy told her family and close friends as well as her Little Mix bandmates.
In the BBC documentary, which will be available on the iPlayer and will air on BBC One from 12 September, she recalled how the bullying began almost immediately after the X Factor.
She explained: "I had about 101 Facebook messages in my inbox, and the first one that came up was from some random man, saying: 'You are the ugliest thing I've seen in my life, you do not deserve to be in this girl band. You deserve to die'."
Jesy continued: "The whole world had an opinion on me and they weren't good ones. From the minute those comments started it became one of the worst times of my life.
"I wasn't known as one of the singers from Little Mix. I was always known as 'the fat, ugly one'. It literally consumed every part of me."
She's hoping her documentary will shed light on the impact social media trolls can have on a person's mental health, regardless of how trivial the comments may seem.
Jesy described herself as a mentally tough person before she found fame on X Factor in 2011 when she was pared with Perrie Edwards, Jade Thirlwall and Leigh-Anne Pinnock to form a girl group.
But the constant and intense messages proved too much. She's incredibly brave for sharing her story.
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