Singer Jessie J Is Heartbroken After Suffering A Devastating Miscarriage
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Jessie J is heartbroken after revealing she suffered a miscarriage.
The 'Domino' star had recently broken up with her boyfriend Max Pham but decided to soldier on and raise her baby by herself.
However, she explained in an Instagram post that doctors weren't able to find a heartbeat during a recent scan.
"Yesterday morning I was laughing with a friend saying 'seriously though how am I going to get through my gig in LA tomorrow night without telling the whole audience I am pregnant'," she said.
"By yesterday afternoon I was dreading the thought of getting through the gig without breaking down.
"After going for my 3rd scan and being told there was no longer a heartbeat. This morning. I feel like I have no control of my emotions. I may regret posting this. I may not. I actually don't know."
While she is overcome with grief and devastation, she said she wants to perform in Los Angeles because she believes it will help her.
"I want to sing tonight. Not because Im avoiding the grief or the process, but because I know singing tonight will help me," she continued.
"I have done 2 shows in 2 years and my soul needs it. Even more today. I know some people will be thinking she should just cancel it.
"But in this moment I have clarity on one thing. I started singing when I was young for joy, to fill my soul and self love therapy, that hasn't ever changed and I have to process this my way.
"I want to be honest and true and not hide what I'm feeling. I deserve that. I want to be as myself as I can be in this moment. Not just for the audience but for myself and my little baby that did it's best.
"I know myself and I know I would talk about it on stage because that's who I am. So instead of a tearful emotional speech trying to explain my energy. This feels safer."
She said the reason why she wanted to have a baby on her own is because she's always wanted to be pregnant and have a child.
Jessie explained how 'life is short' and that conceiving a baby was a 'miracle in itself and an experience I will never forget'.
She knows she will hopefully get pregnant again, however at the moment she is in 'shock' and experiencing an 'overwhelming' sense of 'sadness.
"But I know I am strong, and I know I will be ok," she added. "I also know millions of women all over the world have felt this pain and way worse. I feel connected to those of you I know and those of you I don't."
Despite going through the 'loneliest feeling in the world' she is determined to put on a show for her fans.