Will Smith has opened up about the horrible moment he contemplated killing his dad to avenge his mum.
The Hollywood superstar is set to release his memoir titled Will and People managed to get a particularly confronting excerpt.
The 55-year-old explains to the reader that despite his father, Willard C. Smith Sr, being very present in his life while he was growing up, there was a dark underbelly to him.
Smith said he saw his father punch his mother Caroline so hard one time when he was just nine-years-old that she collapsed.
In his book he revealed this was a huge, life-changing moment in his life.
"That moment in that bedroom, probably more than any other moment in my life, has defined who I am," he said.
"Within everything that I have done since then-the awards and accolades, the spotlights and attention, the characters and the laughs-there has been a subtle string of apologies to my mother for my inaction that day.
"For failing her in the moment. For failing to stand up to my father. For being a coward."
He then explained how later in his life there was one moment where he genuinely considered killing his dad and making it look like an accident.
By this time, Will Smith Sr was battling cancer and was wheelchair bound and the I Am Legend star thought he could use this to his advantage.
"One night, as I delicately wheeled him from his bedroom toward the bathroom, a darkness arose within me," the actor reportedly writes in Will.
"As a child I'd always told myself that I would one day avenge my mother. That when I was big enough, when I was strong enough, when I was no longer a coward, I would slay him.
"I paused at the top of the stairs. I could shove him down, and easily get away with it.
"I'm Will Smith. No one would ever believe I killed my father on purpose. I'm one of the best actors in the world. My 911 call would be Academy Award level."
He said there was 'decades of pain, anger, and resentment' that coursed through his body at that moment, however he quickly came to his senses.
"I shook my head and proceeded to wheel Daddio to the bathroom," he said. "Thank God we're judged by our actions, not by our trauma-driven, inner outbursts."
This isn't the first time Will Jr has opened up about his dad's abusive past before the patriarch died in 2016.
Despite helping the actor find a lot of things he wanted to do in his life, Will Sr also taught his son 'the things I would absolutely, positively never do to my children'.
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