Comedian Rob Beckett has revealed he thought 'it would be better if he was dead' during a low point in his mental health struggles.
Writing in his autobiography A Class Act, the 35-year-old explained that the negative thoughts began to creep in when filming TV show Rob & Romesh Vs in South Africa, despite appearing to have a 'good time' on camera.
According to the Mirror, he wrote: "On January 4, 2020, I was nailing it.
"I had just flown into Cape Town, South Africa, in first class to film a TV show.
"The show was watching cricket, drinking beer and going on safari with one of my best mates AND getting paid.
"This filming was squeezed in during a nationwide sell-out tour. Happily married to the love of my life, with two kids in a family home newly renovated, I had surpassed my wildest dreams."
He continued: "But I was the unhappiest I have ever been.
"I woke up on January 5 in a five-star hotel room thinking it would be better and easier for everyone if I was dead.
"I put on a smile and finished filming. I got back to the UK and told my wife and my friend/manager how I felt."
He says he immediately booked himself in for weekly therapy sessions for six months and will continue to book sessions whenever it feels necessary.
He went on to write: "I am telling you this as I always promote the message that people should talk about mental health, but I rarely do.
"So here I am, talking. I wanted to die when I had everything I ever wanted. So never judge yourself for feeling low.
"Tell someone and they will help you feel better."
After being able to face up to his mental health issues, he has urged others to seek help when needed.
He wrote: "Each day can be a success if you go to bed after enjoying your day and you look forward to the next one.
"It has taken a long time and been quite a journey to get to this place, but I think Rob Beckett the person is learning to be as confident as Rob Beckett the performer."
Rob Beckett's new autobiography A Class Act is available from 14 Oct 2021.
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