Nurse Googled a patient and 'immediately felt sick to her stomach'
A hospice nurse Googled who one of her patients was and couldn't believe what she found.
Hadley Vlahos, known on YouTube as Nurse Hadley, made a video explaining a situation which caused her to change her view on 'certain situations' within her job.
As a hospice nurse, it's her job to go to her patients' homes to ensure that they pass away peacefully, surrounded by loved ones.
It sounds like a nice sentiment, except the health professional discussed the time she took part in a 'compassionate release patient' programme, which involved releasing prison inmates as they were about to die, so they could be surrounded by family.
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She then decided to go on Google and look up who her patient was, and was left with her jaw on the floor.
Sitting in her car, she explained to her 670k+ social media subscribers that curiosity got the better of her while she was caring for him.
She recalled: "I Googled my patient and felt sick to my stomach. I read this article about how he kidnapped someone and tortured them until they died."
"In this moment, I had this realisation that it was my job to make sure this patient had a beautiful, peaceful passing surrounded by friends and family when they had been the reason someone else's last moments were alone and horrific," the hospice nurse admitted.
While it was her job to put that behind her and ensure he passed on peacefully, Hadley said she struggled and even got irritated at little tasks.
While she was at his home, she would go and sit in her car in what she said was 'the bare minimum'.
"Although I still think I hid my feelings well, I felt terrible on the inside. I felt like I was disrespecting the victim whenever I was doing my job and my patient was pain-free and comfortable," Nurse Hadley admitted.
Eventually, the American had to start going to therapy, and accepted that she couldn't change what the patient did, instead aiming to be 'nothing like him'.
Admitting that she can help people have a 'peaceful passing' regardless of who they are, she explained how she dealt with the patient after accepting the situation.
The nurse explained: "After that, I started to care for him really well, he had a peaceful passing, and that guilt turned into pride at my ability to make sure that people's last moments are not horrific."
Some users took to the comments in support, as one wrote: "I think most people tend to feel for the dying and the elderly.
"What most people forget is that evil gets sick and old too."
Another added: "Thank you for doing a job that most of us wouldn't stand a chance at."
"Good advice! ... Never let the world turn you into a monster," a third wrote.
Topics: True Crime, YouTube, Social Media, Health
Joshua Nair