**Trigger warning: Suicide**
Angelina Jolie tragically admitted that she looked at hiring a hitman to kill her.
The actor, 47, has been open about grappling with mental health issues throughout her life, including in her early career when she was so suicidal that she felt the need to contact a hitman to take her life.
The Lara Croft: Tomb Raider star first attempted suicide at just 19 years old, according to reports. But when she turned 22, she devised a plan to end her own life in a way that her family would be able to better comprehend, or so she thought, as she hired a hitman to murder her.
In an interview with The Face, Jolie explained how guilt was one of the defining factors in considering asking a third party to carry out her death.
She said to the outlet: “They’re not that hard to find in New York.
“As insane as it sounds, I think a lot of people consider suicide when they’re young,” Jolie told them.
She continued: “I was very aware that so many people around me, like my mother, would feel as though they didn’t give enough or do enough if I’d taken my own life.
“So my solution to that was if someone else had taken my life – like in a ‘robbery’ – then it would be murder and it wouldn’t be that anyone would feel they’d let me down.”
The actor made it as far as commissioning the killer contractor and had plans to ‘take out cash over a certain amount of time, so there wasn’t a big chunk in my bank account’ directed to the hitman.
But amazingly, it was the hitman himself who convinced Jolie not to take her own life using the unorthodox method.
She said: “He was a decent enough person and asked if I could think about it and call him again in two months.
“Something changed in my life and I figured I’d stick it out,” Jolie admitted to the publication.
The actor’s battle with mental health didn’t end when she decided to cancel her booking with the hitman, but she has been able to address her post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD) diagnosis in recent moments.
Last year, the Eternals star told The Times: "I've had a very blessed life, but I've had my own challenges. I've had PTSD.
"You often feel that feeling of being broken and wondering what you're capable of, and being concerned you're not able to be enough to protect and care for those you love."
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Topics: Mental Health, Angelina Jolie