EastEnders star Dean Gaffney has opened up about a heartbreaking family death, saying he is suffering pain unlike he’s ‘ever experienced’ in his life.
Gaffney, 45 – who is known for his turn as Robbie Jackson in the long-running BBC soap – took to Instagram to share a poignant tribute, saying he feels ‘completely floored’ by the loss.
Posting a photo of his ‘beautiful selfless mother’ Marian, he said he was ‘simply broken’ after she sadly passed away at the age of 69.
Gaffney also revealed that, tragically, he had been the one to find her body, which was something that brought him solace.
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He urged others to remind loved ones how much they love them, and to enjoy their company while they still could.
“I was, am and always will be a mummy’s boy so this news has completely floored me,” he wrote.
“I spoke to her every day and in some ways I’m glad I’m the one that found her asleep."
Gaffney, who said he would have many ‘amazing memories’ together, continued: “Whilst I understand the circle of life means everyone will feel this pain at some point in their lives, life can be very cruel at times, 69 is no age.
“To know I will never be able to physically see or speak to her ever again is beyond any pain I’ve ever experienced in my life.
“We all tell our parents and loved ones we love them flippantly at the end of a phone call but please tell them you actually really love them… put down that phone when you’re with them, as my mums only criticism of me was that I would be on my phone when in her company. Life really does change from one minute to the next.”
The actor added: “I truly love you Mum, you don’t only hold a special place in my heart, you are my heart.
“For anyone that knew her, I don’t need to remind you of who my mum was as a person for others that don’t, she was the most amazing selfless, caring, generous soul to ever walk the earth.”
He signed off the heartfelt tribute saying: “Mum, I truly love you.”
Many of Gaffney’s former co-stars and famous friends commented to share their condolences.
Max Bowden, who played Ben Mitchell in EastEnders, said: "Love you so much mate. She was so proud of you."
Max Branning actor Jake Wood added: "So sorry Dean.”
This Morning presenter Alison Hammond, whose own mother passed away in 2020, also wrote: “Massive condolences to you and your family. I feel this with you.”
Jess Hardiman