Diagnosed narcissist who finds sex 'horrible' reveals his feelings that he wants everyone to know
A diagnosed narcissist has explained why he doesn't think sex is 'intimate' and why he feels shame immediately afterwards.
Content creator Jacob Skidmore regularly tells his 300,000 plus followers across social media what it's like to live with narcissistic personality disorder (NPD).
NPD is a mental health condition which causes an increased sense of self-importance, a need for admiration, and a lack of empathy for others.
Known as The Nameless Narcissist online, the US-based influencer has covered all sorts of topics, from why you're probably not a narcissist, to the surprising thing you should do if you think your partner is one.
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When it comes to the topic of sex, however, Jacob said in YouTube video from 2022 that he previously tried to avoid it in his relationships.
"Sex isn't only the pleasure aspect... it's like a proof of my worth," he explained.
"If I pleasure somebody, or I'm just able to sleep with somebody, that's like an obvious truth that this person is attracted to me."
On the sort of emotional disconnection he experiences, Jacob said: "Whenever I have sex, it's not about connection.
"I don't get it when people say they can connect through sex.
"It's just this thing you do because you're horny or want to prove you're worth something."
Jacob said he felt 'disgusted' as soon as he finished having intercourse.
"I start projecting that shame onto them. I feel like they're judging me for all the weird stuff I did during sex," he added.
"My favourite sex positions are where the girl isn't looking at me. I feel so ashamed and vulnerable that I don't even want to look at them or want them looking at me."
Jacob previously said in his relationships that he 'really tried to avoid sex because I don't want this relationship to take on a purely sexual hue'.
"I want to finally feel like somebody cares about me and that I can genuinely care about somebody else," he continued.
Having had sex with 'more than an average' amount of women, the content creator says he was 'trying to prove something to myself, but after every time, I just feel disgusted with myself too, and it's like there's some of these girls I would never talk to again, not because, like, I want to hurt them or anything'.
"I couldn't deal with the shame of it," Jacob said.
Topics: Health, Sex and Relationships, Social Media, TikTok
Anish Vij