Shia LaBeouf's brutally honest admission about almost killing himself is hitting a nerve with people
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The actor was sued in 2020 by his ex, musician FKA Twigs, who accused him of sexual battery.
LaBeouf has denied the allegations and a trial date for the civil case has been set for 17 April 2023; however, in a new interview, the 36-year-old came clean about many wrongdoings and said he was close to suicide after the allegations came to light.
Speaking on Jon Bernthal's Real Ones podcast, the Holes star said: "I forgot how to breathe... the next thing I did after two minutes of sitting there, staring at a computer screen, is I went and loaded up a gun and sat at my table and was gonna kill myself.
"I was outta here. I didn't know what to do anymore. All my ideas had failed, and I sat there for two minutes thinking, 'where's the wiggle room?'"
The candid interview resonated with many viewers who had experienced similar feelings of helplessness.
Commenting on the video, one person said: "This really hit a chord with me! Not from an addiction stand point, but surrendering to your faults."
Another added: "I appreciate Shia for opening up about his life, I feel like a lot of people can relate and needed to hear."
A third wrote: "This was actually amazing! No matter how much you f**k up, you are still a human. Never forget that."
While another added: "The wiggle room was very real for me. I'm 28 days sober from alcohol and 4 years 2 months 16 days off other drugs. I always had wiggle room. Always a little trick up my sleeve. This month has humbled me."
When the allegations first came to light, the actor said he initially wanted to take to Twitter and defend himself; however, now the dust has settled, he said his accuser - who he didn't refer to by name - is a 'saint' who 'saved my f***ing life'.
He said: "Had she not intervened in my life and not created the avenue for me to experience ego death, I'd either have a really mediocre existence or I'd be dead in full."
LaBeouf added that he has a 'long list of people that I need to make amends to', admitting that he has 'cheat[ed] on every woman I've ever been with' and never told his sexual partners about 'getting cold sores'.
Without explicitly naming FKA Twigs - real name Tahliah Barnett - LaBeouf said: "I hurt that woman. And in the process of doing that, I hurt many other people, and many other people before that woman.
"I was a pleasure-seeking, selfish, self-centred, dishonest, inconsiderate, fearful human being."
He continued: "I f**ked up bad. Like crash and burn type s**t. I hurt a lot of people, and I'm fully aware of that. And I'm going to owe for the rest of my life."
Here's a list of the leading mental health helplines and services that are just a call away in the UK:
- Samaritans are there 24 hours a day, 365 days a year, and will talk to you about anything that's bothering you. You can call 116 123 (free from any phone), email [email protected] or visit some branches in person. You can also call the Welsh Language Line on 0300 164 0123 from 7pm to 11pm every day.
- The Mix take calls from under 25s on 0808 808 4994 from seven days a week from 3pm to 12am. You can request support by email using the form on The Mix website or using their crisis text messenger service.
- Papyrus HOPELINEUK is there for under 35s struggling with suicidal feelings, or those who are concerned about a young person who might be struggling. You can call them on 0800 068 4141 every day from 9am to 12am. You can also email [email protected] or text 07860 039 967.
- The Nightline website allows students to see if their university or college offers a night-time listening service. Nightline phone operators are all students too.
- Switchboard is there for people who identify as gay, lesbian, bisexual or transgender and can be reached on 0300 330 0630 from 10am to 10pm every day. You can also email here or use their webchat service. Phone operators all identify as LGBT+.
- The Community Advice and Listening Line (C.A.L.L). is available for those who live in Wales and can be contacted on 0800 132 737, which is open 24/7. You can also text 'help' followed by a question to 81066.