Former Playboy Model Drank Vodka 24 Hours A Day Until Skin Rotted
At 19-years-old, you could have been forgiven for thinking Jessica Landon was living the dream.
She moved to Los Angeles to pursue her dream of becoming an actress and was successful, appearing on Nickelodeon, NBC and Comedy Central. She also found work modelling, appearing in Playboy and regularly partying with Hugh Hefner at his mansion.
However, Jessica always had an 'emptiness' inside, stemming from being molested by a babysitter when she was just five years old. She attempted to fill this void with alcohol, and by the age of 26, she was a '24 hour a day vodka drinker', carrying the spirit around with her in a water bottle at all times.
While the alcohol was the only thing she felt could relieve her anxiety and shame, she knew she couldn't carry on living this way. She visited nine treatment centres and went sober for nine months, before relapsing in 2013.
From here, she ended up living in a stranger's attic on a diet of only vodka, until one day, she tripped over a staircase railing and landed on her head. After the fall, her face began to droop and her speech became slurred.
Upon visiting the hospital, it transpired she had a brain haemorrhage the size of a baseball, which needed to be surgically removed.
But just two months after making a 'miraculous' recovery, Jessica relapsed again - worse than ever before. She spent a month on a stranger's floor drinking vodka, becoming so weak that she couldn't take herself to the toilet, causing her skin to rot.
Reflecting on her rock bottom, Jessica said: "I lay on his floor and nearly drank myself to death. I was incapable of getting up to use the restroom because I was too weak and atrophied, so I laid there urinating and defecating on myself for over a month in one spot.
"The acid from my urine was eating away my skin on my hips and tailbone which ultimately caused a blood staph infection. I knew I was dying rapidly and became desperate. I called an ex and begged for help. By the grace of God he showed up the next morning with an ambulance."
Jessica weighed only 5st 8lbs and her organs were failing, so she was kept in hospital for more than a month while she recovered.
Thankfully, she managed to avoid slipping back into the alcoholic habits that nearly killed her and has been sober since 3 January 2014.
Now 37-years-old, she works as a recovery coach helping others to conquer their addictions. Better still, she is expecting her first child in December.
Jessica said: "My family is just so grateful I survived and am able to impact the lives of others with my experiences. My parents have been able to help a lot of families that are [dealing with] or who have dealt with alcoholism/addiction in their own family. I think it has helped them process it all on an even deeper level."
Having been through so much, Jessica is hoping she can use her experiences to help prevent others from going through the same suffering.
She said: "I'm not proud of my past, in fact I'm quite embarrassed and ashamed of the kind of life I once lived. Every day young girls move to LA searching for a glitzy and glamorous life in Hollywood thinking they will be happier, more fulfilled and/or achieve success.
"Unfortunately, the reality is that Hollywood is full of spiritually starved, insecure and lost human beings on a perpetual search for 'more', paradoxically leading to feeling like 'less' of a person.
"Self-worth does not come from attention, money or things; it can only build on actions of love and service to others. As long as you have life, you have hope. No matter how bad it is or how low you think you are, it is always possible to turn it all around. If I can get sober, anyone can."
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