Ashley Cain broke down in tears as he revealed he ‘counted his daughter’s final breaths’.
The reality TV star appeared on a special Christmas version of The Real Full Monty last night (11 December).
With the second part airing on ITV tonight, Cain opened up about the day his daughter died.
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The former footballer and ex-girlfriend Safiyya Vorajee tragically lost their eight-month-old Azaylia Diamond Cain to a rare form of cancer back in April 2021.
The little girl was diagnosed with acute myeloid leukaemia at just eight weeks old, with tumours on her kidney, lungs, brain and stomach.
During The Real Full Monty: Jingle Balls, Cain said he’s ‘got a lot of demons’ and is ‘angry’ about what happened to his daughter. Watch the clip here:
The star said becoming a dad was his ‘greatest achievement’ and that Azaylia ‘completely changed his life’.
“For once I felt like my life was complete,” he confessed.
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But after she was diagnosed, Cain said: “We went from thinking our life had just begun with our beautiful daughter to the fact it was on the verge of it being the end.”
Once they’d taken her back home as there was ‘nothing else’ that could be done, he recalled waking up one morning when he and Vorajee ‘just had a sense it was going to be that morning’.
He said: “We wrapped our arms around Azaylia and we counted her last breaths.
“I couldn’t see a point and a reason for me to be here on this Earth anymore.”
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Cain also added: “I just thought for once in my life because of her, I want to be the best person I can be.
“And I want to achieve some amazing things because I want her to know that it’s because of her.”
The former Ex on the Beach star is soon set to become a dad again after revealing he is having a baby boy with a long term friend.
Cain told The Sun: “Azaylia would have loved a little brother, and this is now my chance to do what I was meant to do on this Earth.”
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The reality TV star visited his daughter’s grave to tell her first that he was having another child.
“After going to her resting place and speaking to her about it, I just had a feeling in my heart and in my soul that she was happy for me,” he said.
Cain did reveal there had been some ‘worry and concern’ over the unborn baby’s health but it is now believed ‘everything will be ok’.
You can watch the second part of The Real Full Monty: Jingle Balls on ITV at 9pm.
Topics: Celebrity, ITV, Parenting, TV and Film, Cancer
Jess Battison